Falling Inside the Black

I walk out of the house without a word
Without calling out to my sister that it's time to go
Without saying farewell to my father who's ashamed of me
Without mother being conscious to wish me a great day at school

Whilst walking out, the immediate feel of sadness washes upon the day - upon my body
I don't know why
I don't know how
I just don't know...

Perhaps it be the feel of the fair cool breeze brushing against my body, giving that feel of loneliness
Perhaps it be the feel of the low colour-saturation of the day, for sunlight lacks the ability to shine through clouds
Perhaps it be the street lights flickering, wondering over if it should stay on or switch off on this somewhat dark morning
Or perhaps it be just this day that radiates such a feeling

But what I really do feel is the feeling making its way into my divided chest,
Crawling in with its blood red eyes lit up,
Mouth heavily watering over its prey,
Eating away madly like hungered parasites munching away at their favourite of all - love

I look onwards towards the abnormal-looking sky,
Its colour lacks the gradient sky blue canvas that it usually has...
Clouds heavily blanket the art, looking as if they'd been through a rough night's dreaming
Only to reveal the rare patches of amber and the extreme rareness of blue

After few minutes of these wandering thoughts, I finally arrive at the bus stop
With no one there... Because I was first
With the lone bench staring back at me, greeting the mirrored
With no one... For I am also a lone one

I walk over to it slowly,
Looking one way, then the other
I sluggishly plunk down onto the bench,
Ignoring the fact that a school bag still remains on my backside

I pull out my phone and scroll through some text messages
"I
Love
You" hits a little hard, it feels betraying to another... but...

I really don't know...
I take my iPod out of my pocket to change songs
"Falling Inside the Black
_{Skillet
Comatose}" lights up the screen

_{"Tonight I'm so alone
This sorrow takes ahold
Don't leave me here so cold...
Never want to be so cold"}